Elevator Music?

SINGAPORE TOMORROW.

I'll find out just how much I've missed humidity and free wi-fi. That is ofourse, all material, I know I've missed people most of all. With Stephanie just leaving, a void has already formed and I'm just thankful its not all consuming.

Very effectively languishing at the moment. There can't of a more appropriate word for lazing around thinking and occasionally agonizing in a quagmire of alternating self-pity and well, boredom.

I need things to do. I have things to do but somehow I'm putting it all below me (will come and bite me back in the end, just wait.) It is weird that somehow the people I've met here fill me with a sort of wary anxiety yet at the same time I know they are just human and a really lovely bunch of carnations. There has never been a time when people have confused me more making a simple task such as 'i want to go out for a movie' into an imagine full-scaled disaster which would end in a collapsed building and several funerals (okay, no, i'm just afraid that people would rather have stayed home then come out)

It' mad and crazy and I wish I could feel comfortable enough to be spontaneous again.

Christmas in the tropics. YES.