Elevator Music?

I know i never,NEVER work best when i sleep late.
And here i am teachnically talking to myself at midnight.

The only other person here to acompany me is Lenore:the Cute Little Dead Girl. And she likes blood.

Unenthical.

So i wake in this half dreaming stage to a whole full blast I'm-up-but-not-awake routine.

Actually i was just waiting for something to come around and push the wrong buttons so that i can deliver some harsh remarks:)
I am mean that way,but actually most people don't get me so its a win-win situation,i get to vent without anyone knowing i am venting.

Then because i did not have any caffeine throughout the day,(panshin didn't have any kopi sweets left) I fully snapped during my cca.

Which is not good-frowns-Its just this little bubble of resignation that kept on building,CCA is not suppose to be a waste of time,we are trying to make use of our time.Its not working.

Not working. The club has talked ofcourse about how standard needs to be improving,how a structure has to take place. I see none of it actually,we are still quite idle.And all of us know it.

And so,they come with these little repetetive tests of PA system to keep us busy.Sly,subtle but i totally caught on. We might not know how to operate the system but giving us continual test wasn't going to help.At all.

I told vanessa that it was a waste of time.Complete and utter.Then,i got mad.I don't get mad often,okay not true.I don't get mad often in public.That bubble just kept building,and i felt myself go all hot and funny.

Our teacher in charge asked me if i was all right. Although i couldn't really hear her,too far away.I could literally feel myself turning red,and i really wanted to cry.Out of anger if nothing else.

She told me to calm down,i felt like shrieking.

Then
someone asked me what was wrong,and i said the thing that first came to my mouth:
Emotional Turmoil.

Apparently i said it loud enough for people to quote me.

Fantastic.Really.

We have had enough talks.If it continues.We are really just wasting our time away when it could have been put to better use.
I like going to CCA because i always think that we would do something productive.
Apparently not.

So.
We really want to take intiative.
But can't.
Because there is nothing in the first place.

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